What's your idea of Love?

Today’s entry comes from my oldest friend, Jenna. Jenna and I have been good friends for over ten years. Being together throughout this time, we’ve gotten to know each other like the back of our hands. In ten years a lot can happen, and a lot has happened. We’ve been through middle school and high school together, even some college. Needless to say we’ve had many heart to hearts but also many fights. Fights about my inability to make a firm commitment, fights about wrong and right’s, what to do that night, even what to eat that day, but for the most part our really big one’s have revolved around our relationships with other people. As I’m sure you can guess, mostly the other relationships in our lives.

Since I’ve been 15 Jenna has seen me make and break every relationship I’ve ever had. Needless to say, my relationships have never been the best, and I’d say that Jenna might say the same thing about hers.. (Of course, maybe not, we’re not ALWAYS on the same page :D ).

Anyway, today I got a text from her, and it seemed like it was coming straight from God. One of those things that I needed to hear at the perfect time. She said she was working on some stuff for school (Isn’t school work WONDERFUL!!) and came across a quote that she believes she should live by. It goes like this… “In true love your heart and mind will feel the same way.”

Wow. This is so undeniably true. I think everyone can relate to having your heart say go go go, while your mind stands close by shaking it’s head in disapproval. Relationships are never easy, and as much as I’d like to say they are ‘black & white’ they are the furthest thing from it. I always find myself wishing for protocol for break-ups (and hook-ups for that matter). Yet there isn’t, and there never should be. Everyone operates differently, which has been proven by my past compared to Jenna’s past. In love it seems there is no for sure right, or wrong way. We’re all looking for that someone to share our lives with, including me, even though I’ll tell you differently. SO from today forward I, Jamie M********** (I can’t put my last name out there, just in case of crazies.. You know.) am going to live by a few simple things which simply stated, make sense.

"In true love your heart and mind will feel the same way."

P.S. This blog is somewhat old... since I've been so busy at work and outside of work I haven't had the time to post it. Which means that today is actually Jenna's Birthday too!!!!!!! Whooooo! Happy Birthday Friend, I hope you have a wonderful day full of love and little life suprises. :)

What happens when my Nerdness gets the best of me…

As you can see from the graph I've posted above, I'm currently sitting up front waiting on Ellen to come back and save me.

This chart shows how what I eat on lunch has a direct effect on my level of productivity post-lunch.

Clearly, I should eat more salads, but let's be real, I'd take carb's over a nice green mix any day.

Adios amigos!

If you try sometimes, you get what you need.

To me, life is all about adventure and the things that happen along the way. I have this 'itch' inside of me that is so great it consumes my thoughts and most of my dreams. This 'itch' is defined by the incredible urge to be free, it cries out for adventure and thirsts for change. I may be young, but I do know that this is my one and only shot at life, and man, I want to live it to the fullest. Unfortunately, I've been doing just the opposite. I've been playing it safe in order fit all the versions of who I was told (and thought) that I should be. I spent 5 years working in different office positions for what I am now realizing to be ridiculous reasons. I stayed for the health insurance, the money, and even a 401k. Don't get me wrong, all of these things are great, but what are they to me if my happiness is nonexistent? I found that any money I made, was wasted away on expensive bar tabs, clothes, coffee and cigarettes (my horrible coping mechanism). I realize now that in an attempt to make up for my desolate feelings from working jobs I hated, I turned around and threw everything I made away. It's like the devil has this wishing well and all my money was being dumped right down the drain which only caused a snowball effect of more serious problems then just hating my job. Where did this arrogant behavior get me? Well, it got me right here. Right here and right now I've decided that something has GOT to change.

I've come to a point in my life where I believe it's time for me to stop thinking about the "what if's", and start doing. Everyone makes mistakes, and to me, this is the spice of life. I've come to realize that although my timing may not always be right, (current commitment, cough, cough) I am still happy that I finally took a risk of starting something that essentially scares the s&#t out of me. Needless to say, it was no mistake, and it's been a blast. I can't imagine ever regretting anything, and yes, the memories (Duff FEST, what, what!!!) will always make me smile. SO, Joe, thanks for holding my hand (which as corny as it may be, is obviously my favorite part) through this interesting time of my life, while also understanding my crazy and more importantly accepting me as I am.

Anyway, this blog post was inspired from watching one of my favorite shows, Scrubs. Don't laugh, I mean seriously, how could you not love the characters of scrubs! They are all so quirky, but in a tasteful manner. What is even better is that through their humor and crazyness, well stuff gets real. In the episode that I watched tonight J.D. said this, "I've been thinking a lot lately about taking chances, and how it's really just about overcoming your fears. Because the truth is, every time you take a big risk in your life, no matter how it ends up, you're always glad you took it."

This right here, is exactly why Scrubs is nothing less than amazing. However this simple quote hit home with everything that's been going on in my heart lately. I feel that I've wasted SO much time ignoring this intense urge to get out and DO something for myself.. At this point I have no clue as to what that something may be, but I have this little sneaking suspision, that it's going to blow me away. This is exactly why I need to start this new adventure and new chapter in my life. So please all, send your prayers, (or keep your fingers crossed if that's more your thing) that all the 'pretty little pieces' (HA, get it?) start falling into place. I've been job hunting for about a month now, hoping to land a job in Duluth. Obviously, my starting something new is quite dependent on finding the perfect work. I do need to be able to afford rent (GASP). Yes, I said it... RENT. Adventure number one?

Moving out.

As much as I'd like to keep writing, it's now one hour and seven minutes past my bedtime. My pillow is talking to me, and I think I may have just spotted a sheep. Or maybe that's just those fuzzy things that get in my eyes from my favorite (but annoyingly furry) sweater. So this is C'est la vie signing out, Good night to all and to all a good night!

Sidenote: I'm kind of liking this blog thing. Who knew? I don't know where this is headed, or for that matter where I am headed, but I'm sure loving the sound of it.

Whip it. Whip it good.

uhhhhh, sometimes people say things and I truly don't follow. Whip it good? What?

Laura, my bff is from Jersey, she's crazy but in a good way, you know? Right now she's currently sitting next to me eating pepperoni pizza (probably one of the three things she ACTUALLY eats) and is talking about polly pockets. Remember those? they were bomb.

To her left sits a long time friend, Russ. I met Russ at my very first job back in 10th grade. FESTY FOODS represent, YO! He thinks he can kick my ass, but little does he know Laura and I just took karate :) Plus, I have years of experience in going MIA and also going incognito. These skills will assist me in his demise. Wait, What?

To Russ's left, sits Matt, a new friend in my life, but one with an awesome bike and an interesting perspective on people. I like it. He's trying to read my thoughts but I'm like Bella, you know that vampire girl? NO one, can read these thoughts... Nor should they want to, I'm not sure anyone could keep up. Well, maybe Laura. HA.

Next is Kelsey, she just said, "Underarmour is like wearing a lunchbox". Enough said.

 To Kelsey's left sits, her lovely boyfriend Collin. He rocks my socks off because A. He plays my electric guitar, and that baby needed some lovin B. he's a badass glass blower, and C. He wears cowboy boots. Any guy that wears cowboy boots 9 out of 10 times is figuratively speaking, a rockstar. LOVE.

Then there is me, little ol' me. I've heard people describe me as "A little off her rocker". So I guess it could be safe to say, that I'm crazy too, much like the rest of the people chit chatting around me. This posting really doesn't have much of a point other then to update the inter web people that may somehow come across this. This is my life, here with these people, and I love it. In fact I am enamored by days like today, the perfect temperature (Fall, why must you take so long to get here and spend so little time gracing me with your presence?) and a perfect group of lovely people to spend the evening with.

Anyway...

In honor of how I got to this lovely place tonight, here is a beautiful song to tantalize your eardrums. Enjoy!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lXRLEyIoJZA


This is alf alpha, signing out. Until next time!! RAWR'sssssssssss.